The case of Mr. str8...or is he??

It's been 2 months since he flew back into the country,but strangely i don't feel the excitement any more, you may ask what happened?? why the sudden detour in my line of thought??

the story goes back in April, oh yeah that fateful day. I had resigned long time ago that nothing good random will happen to me. So i log in to my facebook account and i get a notification. I got a friend request, i took no notice of it as i thought, this cold be from one of my many college friends, but a tingly feeling pushed me to act. I clicked it and alas, there is this dude, a distinct unique name and most of all HOT!! the irony was, we had no friend in common,,,,i rarely accept such request but this was an exception....as a flaming hot guy had just sent me a friend request?? wow i found myself singing to the song..it's raining men ( not ordinary men but stunning men) hallelujah!!!

and with that...a new chapter of my life began..one which started with a lot of hopes and expectation but as of now, going to the ruins with nothing to salvage.

So the in boxes started, the chats..all this time no hints by either party, just normal vibe..but deep down my masculine intuition(oh yeah the ladies have the femina one, i possess this and it never lets me down) told me there was more to this than I'd thought!!

He was cool..the conversation was great, i always found myself looking forward to the next conversation or in boxes, Oh boy within 2 weeks i realized i was getting hooked to this bromance thing. I wanted to badly ask him out but i couldn't master the courage,,,he just seemed perfect

surprise surprise,,come Friday and i get an inbox,,"can we hook up for juice or something, here is my no. 0723******* holla, am in town...." i nearly fainted...this was what id been longin for since God knows when..and it was soo random i wasnt even at my best....so my dreams or lust were soon to be sorted or did they??

...to be continued

Loosing grip, I am

it has been almost a year since i've know him, and today marks the 'death' of him.
I'm still trying to come to terms to all that i've done, silly things which we only see in series like desperate house wives...just to get his attention,but alas..i l finally bow out of th battle, or rather i think.

I keep asking myself. why cat i just get over him?? we have never met, yeah that makes it even more funnier? how do you obsess and like? love?? (ok whataver..i don't think i even know the meaning of either...) someone you have met?? oh yea ask me..ill tell you.

he calls himself my guardian angel, that why we will never meet? he has helped me mould myself to someone great but in maters of the heart am left all shattered, why wont he meet me?? or rather reveal himself to me??
I push him about it, n i mean PUUUUUUUSHH!! and today the holding brakes just snapped and he is gone...gone with the wind, i didnt need to hear any words to confirm that, but i've seen it coming all along, but my sturboon self wasnt jst ready to swallow it,, and even now i dont know how i will swallow it and move on..coz clearly im still hooked!!! whats with me and my addictions???and the saddest part, it all ends without me gettin chance to see him, feel him..flooded him with my love or lust?? call it whatever.....

my problem now is how will i move on?? should i just deactivate my account so that i dont see him online and avoid the tempatation to chat him up again?? he shoud just delete me, but he says he wont..now that more torture!!

while at that, yet another heart breaker is prowling my mind...now this one is intersting as he is supposedly straight and even introduced me to his girlfrend...yet we made out once and i could swear th boy wanted to eat me alive

hmmmmmm life life life....strange how all the people i like like, dont likey likey me back in response...time to learn to move on!!

.....to be continued!!

music....th medicne to th soul

hmm being a sato and aint working leo..i spend th better part of the working working on my projects which i carry home and do that with music .....who ever said music has the power to touch n influence lives was soo on point...i can nver seem to get enuf of music..if given a choice id ratha listen to music that watch movie or telly....in that line im ever on th look out to found new music and wow today found smthignsooo random..i tend to belive in evry ccategory of music there must be one or two that are likeable......


now who knoew nigerians cud sing,,and sing mellow...listenin to song 'letting me down getnly' bu tunde and boy the lyrcis really killin me.....i kinda find it easy to relate to the song and funny enuf im findin tears crowdin at my eye sockets and i wont even bother to wipe them....and ooh this other one is from the series office called 'Joshua Radin - The Fear You Won_t Fall' oh boy th lyric are sooo on point esp the lines...
And I miss you more than I should than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you
And I hate the phone

and

Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won't fall

that totally nailed it.....now my saturday is all well...im learning to take courage to face my fears and with such sweet music what more cud i need....next lemme sample sam randon miley cyrus-cant be tamed album..sweet kid goin nasty hmm like th beat!
But I wish you'd call

am i finally gettin over him??

its been 2 weeks since i was given the silent treatment...or as i call it th SHHH treatment.....to be honest im suprosed at how fast time has flown, at first it was hard. as i kept nagging him of which he become more mad n mad at me n said i neededto grow up..but alas i made a vow to mysef not to eb too available..n yea am glad i did that coz for th last 2 weeks,,,i havent texted, inboxed him and it feels kinda cool not feeling clingy to someone.

ok i cnt lie it wasnt easy, my mind occasionally drifted to him but it was back to the same old line....he seems to be doin much better without me in the picture, yeah it sucks realizing that somone isnt nterested inyou..but hey tis life...one has to just pick himsef up and move on.....yeah i occasionally log in with hopes of gettin an inbox form him, but never,,,and my heart cringes at that...isnt it ironic i just realzied im the one always inboxing and missing people....does it mean if i dont invox no one does?? thats a bitter pill to swallow...but hey i ges those are the clear writings on the wall i have been ignoring all along..but not any more...im slowly learning to be by mysef and appreciate those who really matter.......

..............tho at the back of my mind you still linger..i dnt think i will ever forget you!!